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For years Beck Lund has taken care of his volatile boyfriend, Brady, always putting Brady’s needs above his own and walking on eggshells to keep the peace. After Brady overdoses on heroin, his death devastates Beck. Thankfully Beck’s best friend, Timothy Kallis, finds him the help he needs. Beck slowly starts to recover and moves in with Timothy to get back on his feet, but he’s oblivious that Timothy is secretly nursing romantic affection for him.
Beck focuses on his own healing for the first time in his life. After months of challenging his codependent tendencies and learning how to stand up for himself, Beck finally starts to trust his gut and hopes to one day love again. Timothy is patient throughout, taking care of Beck in ways no one ever has. But if Beck can’t recognize Timothy’s affection for him, it might be too late for them to move beyond friendship.
The first page was like a sucker punch. It came out of nowhere and hurt like a son of a bitch. I fought tears and forged ahead.
It still hurt, but it got better and better. Not messing around, Posy throws you directly onto the sharp blade of losing a cherished one to a brutal addiction.
Heroin: Evil, unforgiving, and a sure ticket to your last breath.
Just one more time, I’m almost there, this is the only way…..It’s impossible to win and you drag everyone in your heart down with you.
Beck loses his partner, Brady, to this deadly drug. Ten years he nurtured, loved and tried to pull his lover back from the fatal brink. He lost the battle.
His pain palpated from the pages. My tummy was tight and my eyes were wet as I read.
It was so….real.
Beck is drowning in sorrow, grief, and remorse. His best friend, Tim, pulls him from the wretched despair he is fighting. He’s desperate to save him, but can Beck recognize the silver lining waiting for him? He can’t move forward until he releases the past. How do you say hello when you can’t say goodbye?
Tim never pushed, forced or took. He was simply…waiting. I thought Tim was incredible. It almost seems wrong to say that Beck is lucky, especially after everything he endured. Yet that is the first word that comes to mind; if only we were all so lucky to have a Tim in our lives.
Grief affects us all differently but there is no denying it’s all consuming. We follow Beck’s transition throughout the stages of grief with startling clarity. His suffocating guilt, isolation, anger, depression and finally acceptance does not allow for an easy path. Blessedly, hope, love and a bright future await Beck.
For such a short story, it packs a powerful punch.
It stuck with me, gained strength as it marinated. I think I even see a reread coming in the near future.
Beck is twisted and trapped, however Tim is determined to unravel the knots. It was painstakingly beautiful.
If you are looking for a rise above challenge this may be exactly what you’re searching for.